मनका कुरा

This post has been created as a YouTube video which initially was written by the great Nepali poet Laxmi Prasad Devkota aas an essay. I merely read it and recorded it. It speaks about the attraction and charm of English language in then Nepal. Which is relevant even in current society to some extent.

I used to call you 'my hate' But I never thought it that way All I felt for you was only love Just that I couldn't say 'my love' Now you are on your way Going through feelings Mostly bad, mostly about me I wouldn't let you go But my mind is now mostly cloudy I would like to say goodbye With heart as clear as the sky It was a mistake to fall For you my love, 'my hate' was just rhetorical! But how can I forget you now When you are still in my soul Every breath, every beat, every vow Reminds me of the times we stole Maybe someday we will meet again And I will have the courage then To tell you how I really feel And hope that you will heal Until that day, I wish you well And hope that you will find someone else Who can love you more than 'my hate' And make you happy in every state.

You are the sun that brightens my day The moon that guides me through the night The star that twinkles in my eye The flower that blooms in my heart You are the song that fills my ears The melody that soothes my soul The harmony that lifts my spirit The rhythm that moves my feet You are the dream that I chase The reality that I embrace The hope that I hold on to The love that I long for You are the one that I admire The one that I desire The one that I aspire To be with forever You are my friend, my partner, my lover My everything, my nothing, my other You are the reason why I smile And why I want to make you mine.

In the depths of my heart, a storm did brew, Conflicting emotions, a tempest in lieu. 'My hate' was just a veil, a shield I wore, To protect my fragile soul, unsure of what's in store. But love, like a river, flowed in my veins, Unseen and unspoken, it silently gains. I watched you from afar, in shadows I'd hide, Afraid to reveal the love I kept inside. Now as you depart, my heart in distress, Torn between longing and the urge to confess. I wish I could hold you, never let you go, Yet my mind's a battlefield, emotions in tow. As the clouds obscure the once-clear blue sky, I struggle to find the strength to say goodbye. In this tangled web of love and hate, I search for a way to navigate my fate. But let it be known, 'my hate' was mere guise, Concealing the truth that love belies. A mistake it was not to fall for you, For love knows no bounds, forever true.

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मेरो अन्तिम ड्रिङ्क पार्टी ले मलाई सोच्न बाध्य बनायो।

जिन्दगी को २७ वर्ष निरन्तर अध्ययन/ विद्यार्थी जीवन बिताए पनि कहिल्यै होस्टेल बस्ने मौका मिलेको थिएन। बस्दै नबसेको नि होइन किन भने  अनौपचारिक रूपमा त साथीहरु संग कहिलेकाहीं बसिन्थ्यो तर औपचारिक रुपमा भने बसेको थिएन। समयले कहाँ बाट कहाँ पुर्यायो बुझ्नै सकिएन। 

I have never been a bigger fan of persistence. Excellence always drew my attention and influenced my thoughts. But lately things aren't working out as did they before. I have been working as a trainee at Paropakar Maternity and Women's Hospital Thapathali for more than last 2 months where we undergo a rigorous training for cesarian section and normal labor related activities with duty hours lasting more than 32 hours .

Playing the card games has never been my cup of tea. It has been long time since I've seen tihaar , more correctly, "celebrating tihaar" here in Nepal.

एक यस्तो यात्रा जसमा कसैका जीवनका सम्पूर्ण भोगाइहरु समावेश भै अन्तरघुलित हुन्छन, हो त्यस्तै यात्राको खोजीमा अविछिन्न भौतारिरहेछु म ....

प्रेम जीवन हो l जीवन प्रेमका लागि हो l  प्रेमबिना जीवन अपुरो हुन्छ l  कुनै दिन यो सब भन्ने कुराजस्तो मात्रै लाग्थ्यो l मैले जीवनमा सधै प्रेम गर्न चाहें तर २५ वर्ष नपुग्दासम्म  कसैलाई पनि प्रेम गरिन l साँचो भन्नुपर्दा साँचो अर्थमा प्रेम कहिल्यै गरिन लl   आकर्षण त थुप्रै भए तर ... क्रमश:....

दुनिया मा कमै मात्र त्यस्ता व्यक्ति होलान जसले देखेको र सुनेको कुरा सबै सम्झिरहन सकून।  कुनै न कुनै समयमा कुनै न कुनै कुरा हरेक व्यक्ति ले बिर्सिरहेको हुन्छ। तर मा जति बिर्सने व्यक्ति दुनियामा कमै होलान। सम्झिरहने म, आफ्नो देश तथा भेष सबै कुरा सम्झे पनि आफुले गर्नुपर्ने काम को सुचि बिर्सिन्छु। चस्मा कुन ठाउँ मा राखें भनि बिर्सिन्छु।  कुनै जमाना थियो मलाई स्कुलमा म्यादम ले पढाएका हरेक च्याप्टर हरु कण्ठस्थ हुन्थ्यो। आएर किताबी नहेरी म अक्षरश: खरर भन्न सक्थें।  तर देश दुनिया कल परिस्थिति सबै बदलिंदै गयो र कालिको प्रभाव संगै मेरो स्मरंशाक्तिमा पनि ह्रास आएको हो कि भन्ने भ्रमपूर्ण भान ले मा आक्रान्त हुन पुगें। अहिले परिस्थिति बेग्लै छ सम्झिन्छु त केवल उनलाई, बिर्सिन्छु त उनीबाहेक सबैथोक। कालिको होइन कालिको प्रभाव रहेछ प्रेमको, प्यारको प्रीत को मायाको अथवा मोहको प्रभाव रहेछ सुत्दा उनकै याद आऔंच उठ्दा उनकै याद आउँछ क्रमश:

क्रान्तिवीर त्यो हो जसले अधिकारको लडाई लड्न आफ्ना सहुलियत र व्यक्तिगत सुख सुविधाको तिलान्जली दिन तयार हुन्छ l  तर विडम्बना, नातावाद कृपावाद तथा दलाल सामन्तवाद को अन्त गरि प्राकृतिक न्याय सहितको नयाँ समाजवाद ल्याउने लक्ष्य लिएर आफ्नो भविष्य र जीवन दुवैलाई हत्केलामा राखी सशस्त्र जनयुद्ध लडेका क्रान्तिवीर हरुले समेत जब भनसुन र हस्तक्षेप जुन उपयुक्त हुन्छ प्रयोग गरि राम्रालाई होइन हाम्रालाई मात्र अवसर दिन खोज्छन्, मलाई यो देशको भविष्य सम्झेर रुन मन लाग्दछ।

अनायासै। अनायासै आज खै कहाँबाट मेरो मष्तिष्क को दियो निभेजस्तो लाग्यो। खै किन हो चारैतिर अन्धकार मात्र देख्दछु। मेरा यी आँखाहरू मात्रै दिग्भ्रमित हुन् कि साँच्चै नै मेरो हृदय एक मरूभूमि तुल्य भइसकेको हो। मेरो हृदय किन किन झन् झन् रित्तो हुँदै गयो खाली हुँदै गयो बुझ्न हम्मे परिरहेछ। कविता लेख्ने कविजस्तो होइन, प्रेम गर्ने प्रेमिका जस्तो कोमल यो हृदय आज न त कोमलिकाको कोख जस्तो छ न त कल्पनाशीलता ले भरिपुर्ण नै। अस्तित्व नै नभएको जीव जस्तो सुख्खा उजाड यो मन आज धरिधरी रुन सक्छ न त हाँस्न नै। अफ्रिकाको सहारामा पानी भेटिएला तर मेरो मनमा प्रेम पाउन आज ठूलै कुवा उत्खनन गर्नुपर्ने अवस्था छ। हो, म आज एक जिउँदो मरूभूमि भएको छु।

पापी समय मैले साथी भेट्छु भन्दा, तैँले आफ्नो नभएको व्यस्तता देखाइस आँफै बितेर गइस तर काम हुन दीनस् दुनियाको लागि भ्यालेन्टाइन बनेर आइस् मेरो लागि फगत एक स्वादहिन हप्ता! कैले सरकारी कर्मचारीको चाकरी गर्न पठाइस् कैले भोलि त काम हुन्छ भन्दै झुलाइस् मित्र बनाउँछु भन्दा आफू गइस मलाई झुट बोल्न लगाइस्! २०७५.११.०३ रोज शुभम्।

ऊ एक कवि! मैले प्रशंसा गरें र प्रशंसा गरिरहेँ। प्रशंसा गर्नैपर्छ भन्ने थियो वा थिएन थाह भएन। तर सुरुमा आफू केही पनि होइन, केही काम पनि गर्दिनँ भन्ने उसले विस्तारै आफ्नो भाऊ बढाउँदै गयो। सायद ऊ आफू ठूलो मान्छे भइसकेको बुझ्थ्यो, वा धेरै नै उच्च भइसकेको भ्रममा पर्थ्यो। उसले आफ्नो आत्मप्रशंसा निरन्तर गर्न थाल्यो  आफू गजब र खत्रा हुँ भन्दै धाराप्रवाह रूपमा आफ्नो बयान गर्न कहिल्यै छोडेन। उल्टो, उल्टो उसले हामीलाई नै फेरि औपचारिक रुपमै प्रशंसा गाउन अनुनय गर्न थाल्यो ऊ एक नयाँ कवि। होइन होइन, ऊ त एक स्थापित कवि। किनभने अरूको नजरमा उसको कविता कविता हस् या नहोस् उसको नजरमा मापदण्ड पुगेको स्तरीय कविता उसले झण्डै डेढ दर्जन लेखिसकेको छ। उसको प्रशंसा मा कविता लेख्न मन थियो तर म कवि होइन, उसैले आत्मप्रशंसा गरिराखेकै छ किन भने ऊ एक कवि हो। ऊ एक कवि!